Beck woke about an hour ago, crawling into my bed and snuggling to my side. He is breathing heavy/croupy and his little nose is running; I'm not able to sleep until I feel confident that this is where symptoms will end for the night. Thank … Continue reading Middle of the night
I have to share this. Many who read this know my Beck (and Linley) in our day to day...but some of you don't and this is what you are missing out on. I cannot tell you how full of joy this boy fills me with. … Continue reading Dinner with Beck
Fact: sometimes my snuggly, protective and kind little boy hauls off and slugs a classmate. He looses a star and potentially the long awaited, weekly treasure box treat and there are tears and sadness and in the midst of all this...sometimes I want to laugh. … Continue reading Parenting: I know nothing.
*I began writing this while in the clinic with Beck on Friday and am just completing it tonight so there's a little snippet into how well I juggle life these days* Currently I am curled up in a super uncomfortable hospital gurney with Beck. He … Continue reading
I got a call from Becks oncologist last night around 6:00. From his cell phone which always makes my blood run cold...he is quick to leave a message leading with "nothing to panic about" but I immediately do. When I return his call he has … Continue reading Update
One general guideline within the pediatric community is that any fever most likely will land you in the hospital for at least twenty four hours. This is primarily because most of the children have compromised immune systems but also because of the risk of infection … Continue reading Fever
It's been abundantly clear and overwhelming the past few years as a single mom that I am less in control than I desire and more responsible than I am comfortable with. Leading my little tribe of three was never my plan for my life and … Continue reading Talking to myself